Both my husband and I need emotional healing. More importantly, I need spiritual healing. The past four years have been extremely hard on me and I know that my faith has been suffering because of it. Although I maintain a daily quiet time with the Lord, I am barely hanging on. My heart is broken and I am grieving, I am in a loveless marriage, and I struggle immensely with depression. I need Jesus to be real to me, to be everything I need. It's hard to pray when you just don't know what to say anymore, or how to say it, and it's worse when you don't even believe that God is hearing you. I struggle with belief too.