Please keep me in prayer. I tend to stay quiet about what my marriage is truly like. From the outside it appears as if it’s a perfect marriage, but behind closed doors I cry myself to sleep. I am so embarrassed to open up as this is a man who serves at my church yet fails to serve his own family. I don't want this marriage anymore. It has been over 10 years of tears every day. I stay here because I have nowhere to go. I also know that I am not perfect and maybe I am the problem.